Bit of an emotional rollercoaster all in the space of 24 hours.
Late last night, came across a post on my dashboard warning that a tumblr user is very upset and is contemplating ending their life. I don’t ignore posts like that.
Unfortunately enough, their page was filled with fatalistic text posts and reblogs of anons trying to be positive and encouraging. I added some of my own. Later, they appeared to log off with a final good bye. To my relief, the text posts were deleted later the next day and they returned, apologetically thanking everyone, saying they were tired and upset. Was about to send another pm, but the account was deleted soon after.
Relieved that they came through this dark episode. But, having seen a few trolling and negative anons reblogged last night, I worried they may have tipped over.
No one ever admits this, but the teenage years are scary as hell. All the fears and anxieties are multiplied tenfold. You may feel unloved, unwanted and abandoned however untrue it may be in reality. Then, when you ding twenty, even more is expected of you. It may state that you’re an adult on paper, but you feel far from it. Everyone around you seems to be doing so well, while you’re desperately floundering trying to find your way. I’ve been through very dark times. The persons I know and love have suffered through also.
The open channels of the internet make for a tempting forum to seek help and attention, but for a person already in a vulnerable state, the hateful shouts in the chorus may be all the more deafening. Someone contemplating the unthinkable can be brought back from the brink by someone willing to listen to what they have to say. But, I do worry how many have been stopped short looking for that kindness, and finding permission in the cacophony instead?